Another Friday and 186. I went visiting teaching and they had just made the most wonderful cinnamon rolls. Usually, I'm not especially tempted by cinnamon rolls, but I confess, if I could have I would have eaten two. This is a looooong coast but at least it is a coast and not a regain so I'm not especially unhappy about it which is the problem. Maybe it's even the BIG problem. It's hard to find motivation to do anything when you're not particuarly unhappy with the status quo. The clothes I can wear now are still new and exciting to me and goodness knows I like to eat. And eat and eat and eat. So here I sit in mediocrity. Will things get better after Catherine goes off to Disneyworld? I can't imagine why they should, but it's a nice fantasy.
Anyway, Catherine got a hold of a Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred workout dvd. She is determined to do the 30 days without exception. She even did the workout the day after the marathon--ouch. I admire her. I did it with her last night. It's a nice little workout--only 20 minutes and I worked up a sweat.
I had to roll my eyes at Jillian though. She was talking during the workout--and one of the things she said was that the idea that all we had to do was walk up the stairs rather than take the elevator did us a disservice because we CAN work hard! And we SHOULD work hard! ---no argument from me there--I can't hear that message enough. Go Jillian! It was just the "so give me all you've got for these 20 minutes! You don't get abs like that (pointing at another gorgeous person on the video) for free!!! " that got me. Somehow I just don't believe that Jillian or either of the two chiseled women on her video get their bodies by doing a 20 minute video workout every day no matter how vigourous. Maybe, just maaaybe it takes a little bit more effort than that. Isn't the suggestion that this 20 minute workout will do the trick just as insidious as the suggestion that just taking the stairs will do the trick? I'm picking at nits here and I know it. It's just that little inconsistencies in the diet/exercise world really bug me because on at least some level I'm really trying--so don't make it harder dear industry by saying stupid things okay?
I'm 100% positive that if I ever talked to Jillian, she wouldn't suggest any such thing. She'd be all over me to quit coasting--say no to the cinnamon rolls--get off my lazy behind and get to work!
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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