Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Sunday, April 8, 2012

372 Comedy and the Pond

I love BYU--we had so much fun last night.  Catherine was the only one with a ticket for the show--she literally got the last one, but 50 more tickets were set to go on sale at 6 for the 7 o'clock show.  We got in line around 4:30 and were one of the first. People really started to join the line around 5 and even waiting in line was a party--pizza delivery guys were coming to deliver in line--Dave and C went down to the Brick Oven to get a pizza for us (complete with salad and a 2 liter rootbeer).  There was no foul language or ugly music or off color jokes or unhappy children--just food and friendship and games and laughter. The show itself was terrific.  In short we had a grand time. Pizza wasn't the best choice, and neither was the lemon cake with chocolate dipped strawberries that Catherine made especially for my birthday. The pizza was unwise--but I maintain it would have been very wrong not to eat and enjoy that little cake--Catherine really went all out and I appreciate it.  Still, I'm feeling fat and out of control today. It's amazing how seductive food is---It's a beautiful Easter Sunday--the perfect day for renewal. I'm not hungry, I've already had one reeses egg and yet it's all I can do not make popcorn and cheese and have another egg.  I might still make it later tonight, but for now--really? Why? I don't even want it particuarly. Its just that it's there and I know it's good and that I could have it. At least for this afternoon I made the better choice. I practiced the harp, and am writing this blog and now me and Dave are going to take advantage of the day and go up to Beuss pond and see the ducks.  
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