Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

388 Second dinner and leftovers

I'm feeling better still and walked to work today. I also feel like a total wimp. As we're going through Mom's stuff we're finding all kinds of interesting information---like how Omi and Opa walked 10 miles EACH WAY to church every Sunday. They didn't have special shoes to do it in either. Yes, I'm a marshmellow, but it's nice in a way to know that my weight problem really is a result of my lifestyle not just poor will power. Let me explain---we hear a lot about making "lifestyle" changes. Yes, it's important, but it's difficult because it isn't natural. Omi and Opa never worried about their "lifestyle" they simply got up every morning at 4 and worked like crazy until dark. They ate anything they liked (assuming it was available) and never had a weight problem. Somehow it helps to know that I could make the same choice. I could get up at 4 and work in the yard and find some kind of manual labor job to toil at the rest of the day if I wanted to. It really is an equation I can control---work harder eat more bacon--sit on my duff in an airconditioned office and eat more celery. It's a matter of balance, not necessarily deprivation.

Anyway, we went to SLC yesterday for family night. Catherine came with me and we went early to work at Mom's house. She fixed me a very nice and point friendly dinner to eat on the way. When we got to Lisa's, we found that Lisa had also fixed a very nice dinner--good rolls, meat, cheese, chips, deviled eggs, a veggie tray. I did well.  I did not eat a second dinner although it would have been easy to do so. I munched on the fruits and veggies and just a few chips and one slice of cheese. For dessert there was Lisa's famous chocolate cheesecake birthday cake. This is stuff to die for, but I wasn't hungry and so I only ate a few small bites of my piece and I was really ok with that.

Today I have leftover macaroni grill mushroom ravioli for lunch. This is sort of ok I hope. I think I figured out once that a serving of grill food had something like 30 to 40 points. I figure I've got about 1/4 of a serving today. With some carrots and a 4 point naan bread--not an awful choice.  Tonight I plan to mow the lawn and give the onion rings another go--WITH plenty of cereal.

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