Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Thursday, April 26, 2012

390 Power Out

Yesterday Weber had a massive power outage--no storm or anything--just some hardware meltdown. It was great--I got to go home at noon so I took Catherine to Mom's house and we worked and worked till the appraiser came. Oh my gosh--I am not used to manual labor. We only worked about 4 hours and I was stiff and sore. I hope I at least worked off the pizza. That was a bit annoying.  We didn't know how long we'd be stuck at work, and so ordered pizza. I couldn't eat the lunch I brought because the microwave didn't work and so was "forced" to eat the pizza (3 slices, they had me at gun point--really).  Today is really annoying. The power is still out and will probably be out tomorrow too--they don't need me here to sit in the dark and answer one call every two hours--but I have to be here instead of at Mom's doing work that might actually be useful.  And my boss had even sent an email saying not to come in. I was all set to go back to SLC when her boss said we had to come after all. Grrrr. They expect the power to be out tomorrow too and I'll be here again. One of my big problems is boredom eating--the core plan breakfast did NOT do the trick at at for me today. I had two slices of Catherine's homemade sourdough, a big glass of milk, some oatmeal and an apple then at work a banana and a lot of fiber one cereal. Still starving. I just finished a vast salad with as much meat and cheese and blue cheese dressing as they could put on--plus some breadsticks and a reeses egg. I'm still not especially full.

    Two more cookies later. The power's back on. That gets a lukewarm hurrah from me---I was upstairs all set to doze off for awhile. Tonight we're having Hungry Girl eggplant penne, which sounds blech but is super wonderful. HG has the right idea about portion sizes--big.

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