Oh yum--oh blech. We went to Famous Daves BBQ last night and had the "feast for two" plus an order of boneless wings. I am FULL--ribs, wings, coleslaw, beans and the BEST corn bread muffins on earth. Not smart, but oh so nice to just go relax and dig in. This morning I'm still full. I had all kinds of plans (day off!) to mow the lawn and go to SLC and do some gardening. It rained yesterday and is still cloudy and wet with intermittent showers. I'm going to SLC anyway--I'm thinking/hoping the ground will be real soft and I can at least put mulch down to help with the weeds. Tonight I'm taking Catherine out, and tomorrow the family is taking me out and then I am done with huge restaraunt meals--at least for awhile.
The appeal of restaraunts is gigantic--it's a good thing we're not rich or I would be eating out every single meal. I never seem to get sick of it. I saw a documentary on Michael Jackson once--one of the weird things he did was to have his cook prepare his lunch and serve it on a plate with plastic over it as though it came from some park or gas station or something. Very weird--and I'd like to think I wouldn't be strange enough to do that, but I totally GET the appeal. Buying pre-made food or going to a restaraunt signals--wealth, vacation time and luxury to me. Strange that Michael with all his millions seems to have felt the same way. Happily, I also like to cook--and there are some things that no restaraunt could ever do, but still---it's going to be a long time I think before I can happily be moderate at a restaraunt.
Alarmingly the half-marathon is a week from Saturday!!! Yikes!!! It's supposed to remain in some nebulous time in the future! I'm not ready! Yikes!!!!
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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