Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

379 Sabbath

A day of rest! Thank goodness! I'm caught up on sleep and am giving my poor body the day off. Today's concern is my feet--they hurt! Probably from wearing old tennis shoes yesterday gardening--this is concerning because of the marathon on Saturday--it's hard enough coming into it in one piece let alone with hurt feet and a weird left leg. I wonder how many of these aches and pains are real and how many are imaginary because I feel underprepared? Guess I'll find out Saturday.

Foodwise--today is a ww counted perfect. Breakfast was 1 pancake, milk and fruit (a typical Sunday b-fast cause Dave always fixes pancakes), a deliberatley light lunch because I am determined to have a reeses cup for dessert AND I really wanted a lot of the spinach crab dip that I made yesterday. SO--lunch was--banana, 1/2 can of progresso lite chicken soup, a tomato and onion salad and 1/2 cup of chip dip with 24 tortilla chips that I baked yesterday. Dinner will be porkchops and peaches, 1/2 cup of brown rice, asparagus, 6 stuffed mushroom caps.  Dessert--the peanut butter cup--that puts me at 32.5 points--I give myself 36.  I'm going outside now to see if the branches of the sticker tree that I chopped down are dry enough to burn--if so, I might add some marshmellows to the list.

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