Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Saturday, April 7, 2012

371 Exceptions exceptions

Brother--a year into this and still the same problems. Those EXCEPTIONS are SO hard to cope with and there are SO many of them in my life! Example: Yesterday we decide to go to the movies for a change--we both like the movie food here which is really bad for you. Well.....for as rarely as I go to movies....Then today we're going to Provo to hopefully see a show and will take Catherine out--well...I don't get to see her as often as I would like, and eating out is my favorite thing....then tomorrow is the real Easter, so some candy is mandatory, Then monday I'm going to SLC to have dinner with Lisa and family..well....that's super stressful I need all the chocolate chip cookies I can get. Then on Wednesday  it's my birthday!! Well...that's a legitimate reason to celebrate--especially since I've lost all this weight--I want to go to the Pie Pizzaria and feel like I can have anything I like. Then the day after that I took the day off--Catherine needs to come to SLC to see a special program for school--we can spend the day together a rare treat and the Cheesecake Factory just opened in SLC!!! I can finally get those buffalo bites that I couldn't enjoy in Denver. That's just my week this week.  Also upcoming in April is the annual reception that I love because it's appetizers gone wild, a fancy retirement dinner (free food!) and a wedding reception and who knows what all else.  All of this can be coped with---it's just wanting to cope with it that's so hard.

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