Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

381 filling food

Another rainy day---annoying in one way, because I had a meeting cancel and had planned to go to SLC to work in the garden.  On the other hand...maybe this is a real gift from God. He knows I'm dumb enough to do the 1/2 marathon on Saturday regardless of how I feel, and my legs are having real troubles. Gardening is hard on the backs of the legs--so maybe it's smart not to go down and make things worse.

Anyway--yesterday was pretty good--but what the heck with the onion rings???!!!!  According to Hungry Girl's receipe "Lord of the Onion Rings" you're supposed to take 1/2 cup of ground up fiber one cereal (add some spices like garlic powder and oregano) and a large onion. Dip the onion in egg beaters and then the cereal spray with canola oil spray and bake. 1/2 cup?? I went with it because occasionally these receipes surprise me and actually work--but 1/2 cup??? for a large onion??? Either her crew airbrushed the onion ring coating on molecule by molecule for the picture, or she meant large pearl onions or something. I must confess that what little coating there was on my onions tasted fine--but honestly!!  Next time (yeah it was good enough for another try) I'm going to grind up a reasonable amount of the cereal--like 3 cups or more---it still would be a low point healthy dish with an amount that works.

Today--I'm doing the "filling plan" meaning I can eat as much as I want as long as it's from the limited ww list. It's nice to do this once in awhile and feel full---I had a lite bagel with cream cheese, cottage cheese and a big glass of milk for breakfast, lunch will be tomato soup, rolls, a little cheese and olives (I have to count points for those), I've also had a banana, and rice caramel rice cakes. I'm blowing it a little because my co-worker just came back from a vacation in Chile and brought  chilean chocolate bars--of course I'm having a little. How often does that come around?

Today I'm grateful for:

the internet--(trying to find home appraisers in SLC)
fun ethnic food
that we didn't lose the cat last night
tomato soup
the Weber State stress lab--and the time in the afternoon to use it while on the job! I'm going to find a massage chair and see if it helps.
That I live in a country where having too much food is actually a problem.
A sale at Christopher and Banks!
That I can now shop at Christopher and Banks--not the larger CJ Banks! Yea!!

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