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Today we went to SLC for Riley's 8th birthday. I was a little worried--last year there were all kinds of things like chips and dips (my favorite) that are very hard to handle in a reasonable way. This year, thank goodness, there was only cake and ice-cream and I was greatly helped with the cake because I had eaten a lemon-creme muffin for breakfast. I LOVE the cooking-light magazines. This muffin was still expensive at 6 points, but it was dense and filling and rich. Any healthy recipe that is good enough that I would make it even without trying to lose weight gets honored by earning a place in my yellow file. This one qualifies. I had some fruit with the muffin so breakfast was only 6 points and cake and ice-cream weren't all that tempting even though it was cake made by Lisa, who is an outstanding cake maker---chocolate cheesecake ice-cream. Oh YUM. I had a very tiny piece. Mom was there after the party we took her home and then went over to Dad's to pick some of her raspberries. Anything Mom grows is instantly out of control and this year she doesn't have the energy to pick. We each picked three containers full and there are still loads of berries on. It was the middle of the day though and 100 degrees. We were all sweaty, and then the car doesn't have air-conditioning and there was a pile-up on the freeway. In short--I didn't want much lunch. I have PLENTY of points for dinner tonight--another new recipe from the magazines---steak pitas. The meats been marinading all day, and I made naan bread last night to eat with it, also I had Dave pick up some cheetos (relatively cheap for the points).
One unpleasant surprise though---I feel so much slimmer, but pictures from Catherine's graduation and Aruba still show me as the same old dumpy person. I haven't lost that much yet, and I'm still very heavy at 194, so I guess it's to be expected. Nothing to do but to keep at it I guess.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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