Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Monday, July 18, 2011

108 picnic

Missed blogging yesterday.  I don't like missing this--I'm astounded at how important writing this out every day has been for me.  Anyway--I had a lovely on-track day yesterday.  Every year Weber State puts on a pops concert and fireworks and yesterday we went for the first time.  An amazing amount of people came! We were allowed to bring blankets and chairs after 6 p.m. We got there about 6:45 (the concert wasn't due to start until 9:00 and the fireworks at 10:00).  There were a number of families camped out on the grassy area in front of the hospital across the street from WSU.  There was a perfect  view of the whole sky, so we staked out our spot on a shady hill and just relaxed.  I had budgeted my points to have a really good picnic---roast beef on rye sandwich, pickles, olives, deviled eggs, fruit, cheetos (28 to be exact), carrots and four chocolate chip cookies.  Counting things out like the cheetos is a bit of a double edged sword.  I suspect I wouldn't have eaten as many as 28 cheetos yesterday, but they were counted and I was allowed and I'm not mature enough yet to not eat a full serving just because I'm full.  On the other hand, I would have eaten more than four cookies--so I suppose it all washes out in the end.
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