Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Friday, July 22, 2011

112 Aw Heck

Weigh Day and 193---Again.  This is what I weighed before the Aruba trip and it's what I weigh today. Sigh.  However, I don't think it's really a plateu.  I think it's just taken some time for my body to process what I ate in Aruba--plus last Saturday's Harry Potter feast.  I don't like that it's been this slow and I badly want that one more pound to break into new territory, but at least I'm sitting at my bottom weight which is a nice place to enjoy.  The only thing that has me worried is that on Monday I'm going to start a strength training program. Worried isn't the right word---I want to build strength and add some muscle, this will only help me to lose weight and make it easier to maintain the loss, but in the short run it might make me gain weight. Seems like everything in the short run makes me gain weight.

I've also been pretty much eating my max points and although I've been faithfully walking to work everyday, (a reasonable workout) I haven't been doing more than that. Still, I don't feel as though I need/want to make too many adjustments just now other than adding the strength training. I'm going to enjoy splitting a calzone from the PIE with Dave tonight and feel slim and happy at 193, then keep on working along until I see that magic 192.

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