Well, what can I say? Sometimes life just happens. Last night was a wonderful quirk of fate. I had been absolutely perfect and was all set to finish the day with the planned turkey sandwich, when one of Dave's co-workers offered me a free ticket to the Story Telling Banquet. Weber State has a wonderful storytelling festival--Dave is on the committee could have gone anyway, but this allowed me in too--let's see....a $50 dinner with entertainment or a turkey sandwich...?
Maybe I'm rationalizing, but I still say that a choice like that is a no brainer. Life is rich and wonderful and should be enjoyed! It was a lovely event and the storytellers were fabulous. There was even a harpist who sounded simply wonderful and she was playing songs from my book! I am inspired to really get in there and practice. Food-wise--it would have been obnoxious to bring in outside food and it was absolutley delicious--I was hungry and didn't even consider trying to eat less. As it was, the portions were controlled for me and I didn't feel as if I had overeaten although I'm sure I ate a great many too many points.
So---no regrets on the banquet score, even if it does slow down the journey.
But I DO have regrets on the truffle score today. Today is Zorro day. I'm the one who pushed for us all to eat at Subway so I could have some crackers and cheese at the reception (although that too will no doubt be over points--one ounce of cheese doesn't go far. To compensate for the cheese. I am eating a VERY low point breakfast and lunch--and really, if you work it right you can eat quite a lot for very few points. For breakfast I had---grilled grapefruit, an omlete made with egg whites, and a piece of toast with butter. For lunch, a big bowl of zero pt. soup, 4 wasa crisp crakers with 2 laughing cow cheeses on them and a banana. All of that only equals 7 points. But you can't fool the body. My body knows darn well that I haven't really fed it enough calories today and suddenly it seemed so logical to eat a small part of a peanut cluster (don't know how many points so therefore zero....?) and a Ferro Rocher truffle (2 pts). Today, being leap year day, Subway is also giving out free cookies and I'm sure that will seem logical too--because I can't really count or control the crackers and cheese so therefore--a cookie and a truffle won't add much to the problem. I think that's the logic and it's really poor thinking. Will writing it down here enable me to pass up that cookie tonight? I think it's going to depend on how hungry I am--and since I still haven't eaten much....I suspect logic will be out the window
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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