Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Tuesday, February 28, 2012

326 African Dance

Doing well in the zone so far. African Dance last night was super fun, and the Hungry Girl mini spinach pizzas are TERRIFIC by any standards, not just diet ones. Family pressures have eased up temporarily and my appetite is reasserting itself.  Still, I'm not too unhappy today. I had banana bread, milk, an apple and PB2 for breakfast, some jerky for a snack (love it, but it's not too filling) and will have mini pizza's for lunch. Dinner isn't as exciting though---a turkey sandwich (a big one) and I'm out of points. I can have zero pt soup with it, and jello for dessert--actually, I think if I do half mustard and half horseradish sauce the sandwich becomes more exciting. I'll live.  I walked to work today--lately I seem to be walking anytime the weather is bad--gotta fix that! and I have wellness time. That ought to pull off a little weight.

 Tomorrow will take some real management--I don't want to eat many points for breakfast or lunch because we're going to Subways for dinner and then to Zorro--with crackers and cheese--LOVE crackers and cheese.  I think I'll go plot this right now---zero pt soup for lunch with wasa and laughing cow--4 crackers two cheese--4 pts--plus a banana. Breakfast...don't know yet---a big egg white omelete maybe with a slice of 1 pt toast? I think that will work. A Subway roast beef sandwich--maybe chips--then I think I'll be ok to have crackers and cheese--I'll have to rely on Dave to stop me from wolfing down pounds of cheese tho.

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