YES!!! Catherine got the job at Disneyworld! I'm so excited for her I can hardly stand it. I can NOT wait to go and visit! Oddly, this means that I will have to set a new reward for someday reaching goal weight. The original reward was a trip to Disneyworld-it's unlikely that I'll be at goal weight when we visit her, but I'll be farther along the path anyway--maybe a trip to London when I hit goal? I've always wanted to go to London. Where the money for all these trips is going to come from I have no idea--but the thoughts are good anyway.
Yesterday was a little unusual, in that I would have preferred to eat far better than I actually did. We took Catherine back to Provo and went to Panda Express--her favorite place, for lunch and then J-Dawgs, Dave's favorite for dinner. Left to myself I would have had something from home for lunch and Subways or Pita Pit for dinner. Usually I enjoy excuses to eat really fattening food, but yesterday I really didn't. The food was all right, but I wasn't dying for it or regretting that I wouldn't have it again for awhile. A small improvement!
It's snowing today but I walked to work anyway and I remembered my clothes for wellness time too. My food is a little unplanned but on track--I had a 7 pt breakfast and I need to figure out the points for lunch--but they aren't too many. It's just that it's leftover night and I don't know what I'll be in the mood for. I'm just going to make sure I have plenty of points for whatever it is. Also--yay me, we had a mini Thanksgiving dinner on Sunday night and I sent home almost all the fattening stuff with Mom and Lisa. I kept a little stuffing that we'll probably throw out and a little gravy for Dave, but as for me--I have turkey sandwiches for lunch which are terrific choices.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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