Today was a good all around day. I committed the diet sin of skipping breakfast, but I was overstuffed from the pizza--and overall I think it's generally a good idea to follow your inclinations. I took Catherine shopping and then came home to a nice lunch of lunch meats with cream cheese, an english muffin, soup, jalapenos and one point worth of olives. Dinner was turkey burgers--I had vinegar and salt on my fries so I ended the day with 6 points which I blew on a devils food cupcake Catherine made. I loved feeling free to drink milk with the cupcake. I'm ending the day feeling full and satisfied and looking forward to tomorrow's steak dinner. I also ran for 12 minutes along the 5K track. It wasn't that cold--around 40--so I just took it slow and did some of the breathing through my nose and I was fine. It felt good to have a destination. I have a long way to go though--my legs felt heavy, and I just flat out don't really enjoy the act of running--at least not like I enjoy walking. But maybe that will come later, when I feel confident that I can run more or less indefinitely like I can walking. Goodness knows my "running" isn't much faster than a walk anyway.
Grateful today for---kalamata olives--weird how I went from not liking olives at all to being passionate about them.
Milk
The ability to buy food and to cook food--the general great luxury of enough money. I did a food order for a lady today--no food in their house and she doesn't know how to bake cookies! I've never met anyone who doesn't know how to make cookies! The food orders are plentiful and generous and it IS more than just the bare basics, but still---MY house is filled with everything I could want to cook with or eat--such as the stuff for the cupcakes--and things to put ON the burgers--little luxuries like relish and dill pickles and onions. I paid the bills this morning and was feeling a little bit tightly stretched. Not anymore.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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