To my relief yesterday's 15 minutes was just fine! One of the easiest runs yet. I drove myself up to Beuss Pond and ran around that. Two ladies were there with their dogs who barked at me--one lady said, "Now you let that lady run in peace!" It made me smile--at least they could tell I was running! After I finished, I walked a lap to cool down and happily it took more time to walk than it did to run. That's not something I take for granted--I'm truly that slow. Food-wise also good. I'll have to try the turtle cheesecake with real sugar. I used splenda and I think it made it too sweet. Today is easy because we're fasting today since we didn't last week. I'm making a porkchop reciepe that uses chocolate as an ingredient. I love to cook and try new things.
Otherwise, I weighed myself and I think the scale is stuck. Frustrating, not just that the journey is slow, but that I keep throwing away the gifts that it gives me. I was 184 AFTER Christmas, and did I take advantage of that? I did not. I was greedy and now I have to re-lose those pounds painfully and laboriously. Reading this blog shows that I do that over and over and over and over and over again. You'd think I'd learn, but I don't. I'm just I haven't given up altogether so I could catch the problem now, not after I'd thrown it away for months and found myself back up at 208 plus more.
Challenges this week are the work retreat tomorrow--lunch from Goodwood BBQ, plus a trip to SLC--which will mean dinner out (that's ok, I'll go to Pita Pit) and ice-cream from sub zero. Tuesday is Valentines--I won't pig out on chocolate, but we are ordering a heart pizza. I'll do my best not to go crazy with the problems, and to make sure everything else I eat is good and keep up the exercise. It won't stall me for long.
Tonight I'm grateful for:
Porkchops and new receipies
homemade biscuits
diet coke
chocolate chip cookies, dove chocolates and cheesecake--all of which I can have and still lose weight.
spices
variety
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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