Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Monday, February 27, 2012

325 Steel Curtain Zone

Well! As soon as I say that I distrust Sean's "steel curtain zone" I find that I'm in it myself!  I was 184 again today--YAY!!! and am really excited about breaking through to a new weight. I'm a little hungry right now and I was at a reception this morning that had brownies and cookies that looked good but for once I didn't want the goodies as much as I want to stick to the plan today and go African Dancing after work! I think it really helps a lot that I've been at this for almost a year now and I know full well that I can--and more importantly--will--have full fat cookies and brownies anytime I want them. Today though I WANT to see 183, a new breakthrough.  Well, really I want to see a couple new numbers.  182 is exciting because I was stuck there for AGES in college--it was my default setting. That will really make me feel young again to see 182. 181 is important because that is the insurance goal I must reach by the end of March. 179 is important because that's what I need to see on the home scale before the stupid doctor scale will read 181. Besides, it's in the 170's.  WOOOOOWWWWIE.  I'm looking forward tonight to Hungry Girl deep dish pizza--Dave's making it--and I have a choice---either I can have three pizzas, or I can have two and another slice of banana bread. It's just nice that it's in front of me. Plus I have a chocolate fiber bar that I plan to eat before I go dancing.  Life in the zone IS good and I plan to enjoy it as long as it lasts, or until Friday, whichever comes first.
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