Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Saturday, February 4, 2012

303 Pizza

OKAY then!!! I am back on the wagon again--easy this morning because last night I had PIZZA.  And I mean PIZZA. Papa Murphys 5 meat stuffed crust--as much as I wanted.  Cheesy bread from the Pie--as much as I wanted. Salad. then chocolate chip cookies and milk--as much as I wanted.  It felt great. I don't feel sick or even guilty--just a little annoyed because I know something like that will set me back on the scale.  This morning I'm still full. But I'm feeling optimistic about the upcoming week. I'll be mostly following the "simply filling" plan-which means I can eat as much as I want to off the ww list.  The list is pretty generous--all fruits and veggies, most meats, most dairy (just not full fat cheese), and any "lite" bread.  What's obviously missing is cheese, sugar and fat. But I can use the 7 points a day for that and it really goes pretty far.  Last time I tried this I mostly used it for butter on my morning toast, a little cheese at lunch, some oil on my popcorn, and some chocolate. It's not a life-long liveable plan--but for now I just want to see that 181 (actually it's going to need to be 179) by the end of March so I can meet the insurance goal---plus feel really terrific.

Today's gratitude---
MILK! As much as I like.
Fruit--I hope Dave buys clementines.
I'm thankful that all the bills are paid, including the huge gas bill.
I'm thankful that we'll get a tax refund.
I'm thankful Catherine is visiting.
I'm thankful that today is a little warmer so I can do my 12 minute "run" outside.
Tonight we're having turkey burgers, one of my favorite meals and I don't have to worry about the calories in the burger--only the points in the ketchup which isn't many.
And lastly, I'm thankful that I can always always always start over!

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