Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Thursday, March 1, 2012

328 spin

Oh wow. TOTALLY out of control last night.  There have been many times over the past year when I've eaten more--but NEVER quite so compulsively in my life. All was well until we got to the play--I had already eaten a full meal (yes, the cookie went down) from Subway. And then there were crackers and cheese and little salami rolls and strawberries and a chocolate fountain. I was already full. I KNEW I was full but I simply could not stop eating!  I easily ate another (heavy) meal's worth and the only thing that stopped me was the backstage tour and even then I put the plate down very regretfully. Tickets included two items from concessions--didn't want them, certainly didn't need them--but ate a giant cookie anyway--which finally stopped me. I only ate one fruit snack after that.  Today I don't exactly feel guilty, but I feel a little confused somehow. I think the message is that going to extremes triggers a bad backlash so I'm easing up just a little today although I should still be well within points. I had some milk, banana bread an apple and PB2 for breakfast, two mini pizzas and cabbage salad with 2 truffles for lunch (2nd truffle a mistake) and will be trying out Hungry Girl's eggplant penne pasta ( a macaroni grill take off) for dinner.  Tomorrow, we're going out for dinner somewhere--not planning on going crazy, and since I've now eaten I feel calmer so I should be acting within reason.  Saturday will begin another week--an easier one--back to 36 pts and exercise, but still in control. I'll see where it gets me.
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