Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Tuesday, March 6, 2012

333 Boring meeting

Fun at African Dance yesterday. Today though I feel hungry--I think part of what I'm feeling is in anticipation of a really boring meeting I have coming up at noon.  This means I need to have lunch almost 2 hours earlier than I normally do which will throw off my afternoon plus the stupid meeting pre-empted my wellness time. But I can quit whining now--much is on the bright side--it's a warmish day so walking to work was a pleasure, and I'll be able to run after work. I'm making the really good eggplant penne tonight for 8 pts and I've budgeted for a reeses cup. Lunch is likewise good--a wrap and soup with olives and some chip things Dave found--27 chips for 3 pts--it's a pretty big pile of chips. I'm also grateful to be almost a year along on the road--plus the learning I gained from the years getting to the road. My friend is thinking about starting WW soon. She'll do great, but it's so much easier for me---I have loads of receipes now that I like and lots of easy fall-back choices, and I've ironed out a few glitches of character (lots more ironing to do though).  She'll get there--and so will I--it's probably a good thing that we can't see just how far and long the road is--but today I'm glad that I'm partway there.
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