Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Saturday, March 24, 2012

351 whenever

Still waiting. Pauses between breaths is longer and longer. I'm just sort of sleeping and eating as I can and as opportunity presents. Stepped out twice for exercise--the first time took me to the new city creek area in SLC. Fabulous--I stopped at the new cheesecake factory and bought a slice for myself, Lisa and Kristin. Kristen brought Chinese food. So--ate way too many calories around 3, but didnt feel like eating anything else at least. Took another walk around my old neighborhood in the evening--might have sold Mom's house! I met two sweet missionaries from AZ they were taking pics of the old houses in this neighborhood and were so excited that I grew up in this one. They asked if we would consider selling?  Well, YES!!  I explained the situation and the one lady was really interested--we exchanged info--she was talking about being able to do without a realtor.  Wouldn't that be great if I could really sell this house quickly? God is very merciful. Maybe I wanted to walk where I did last night for a reason.  I saw the lady walking by again this morning. She even wants the cats!

For breakfast today I had a granola bar, milk and a banana. Lunch might be Subways. I'd like to take some more walks but I'll have to see how it goes.

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