Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Monday, March 12, 2012

339 Problematic Weekend

Darn it!  Great start and new low weight on Friday--overdid food on the weekend.  WHY do I do that?? Answer--I love to overeat and success is a great excuse. It doesn't feel like self-sabotage, but it undoubtedly is. Not that I totally thew in the towel--just did a little bit worse than planned. We went to the temple Friday night and got out later than planned--we had planned to have burgers and fries for once which we did--but it was much later in the evening than it should have been.  On the plus side, I threw out most of the shake even though it was fabulously good. Saturday--pretty much on track--ran two miles out of the 4 or so it takes to walk to the library. The thing that threw me there was the funeral. I volunteered to spend it helping in the kitchen. Had many tastes of frosting-plus one square of cake. Dinner later that day was reasonably portioned ham and funeral potatoes. --Not bad, but funeral potatoes are diet deadly. Yesterday on track--made Hungry girl potato salad out of cauliflower--not bad at all--Didn't count points but rode bike 10 miles and should have had plenty of points for the smores we made over our Christmas fire pit.  Today--186. Phooey. Hoping at least some of that is muscle weight--I also worked out on Friday. I'm LOOKING thinner and my jeans today are very loose. Try and try and try again. Oatmeal for breakfast, a normal lunch--pita pit for dinner. And a day of rest exercise-wise because I'm going to SLC. 

Now to announce the fun project!  I'm doing the LAZY MAN IRON MAN. I began on Saturday (hence the two mile run).  The idea is to complete a full iron-man--2.4 mile swim, 112 miles bike and 26.2 miles run--but complete it over time.  In this case between March 10 and April 4.  That's still a LOT of exercise but it will be a great achievement--and I'm hoping will also strengthen my left leg (which has gone weird lately) so I'll be in good shape for the 1/2 marathon on April 21.  I'll have some time at work today to create a nifty chart and I think I'll look for places that might make a medal for me and my friend, Maria who is doing this with me. FUN!!

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