Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Wednesday, September 28, 2011

179 Still better

Okay, better and better and my stats homework is almost done! My only complaint is that after FASTING on Monday and eating lightly yesterday, I was still 187 this morning.  But really, I'm not complaining much--I'm still just so delighted to see anything in the 180's, let alone 187 that I'm thrilled. Now, how to get the doctor's scales here to register that for the insurance?.... Those scales will still say 191 and the nurse will subtract 2 lbs for clothes.  Oh well.  Might be just as well to reset the insurance weights. My own personal goal will be 181 (woweee!) by the end of November. Obviously, Thanksgiving is the famous challenge there, but I don't think Thanksgiving will be nearly as deadly to me as next weeks conference in Denver. I'll be in Denver Sunday through Wednesday--Four straight days of eating out for every meal. And do I want to be reasonable?  I do NOT. Denver has OLD CHICAGO--one of my all time favorite restaurants--the spinach and artichoke dip is to die for. The appetizer platter which has buffalo wings, the dip and cheese sticks is my definition of heaven. This trip is coming up fast--I need to think of how I'm going to get through it without putting on a bunch of weight. Lots of sitting lots of food. Maybe I can make my mind up to have one big blow out at Old Chicago and then eat lightly the rest of the trip? I'll have good examples all around me and I can try to just mimic what they do. The only problem with that plan is if other restaurants are equally as tempting. It's still hard for me to be reasonable in the face of "rare" food. Even though I grew up only 5 hours from Denver, I've never been--and big cities are famously loaded with great food. HOWEVER, I live only 1 hour from SLC and SLC has loads and loads of great food too. I'll be there really isn't too much in Denver that I couldn't also get in SLC if I really wanted to. I think I'll make a point to telling Maria, Jennifer and Margarita this and make it their job to remind me fo this fact---I probably need the reminder on an hourly basis. The other problem I fear, might be boredom. Boredom always makes me want to eat and sitting for hours and hours listening to speakers---hopefully they'll be interesting, but there are no guarantees.
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