Yesterday's long walk went great--though I still think I'm fighting this weird virus. The body is funny--last week's 90 min walk really tired my legs out. Yesterday was 2 21/2 hours and I'm just fine. It's as though my legs were reminded--"oh yeah, walk--we do that." Food and time wise were both weird yesterday. Yesterday and this whole next week I fear, will be overshadowed by statistics. I have a test coming up, which would be fine, except that I'm going to Denver for a conference during the days immediately before the test when I would normally be studying for it. I'm going to miss the class review, and I'll have to have my homework in early. Catherine will come home next weekend so that wipes out next Saturday's study plans too. Still, I should be fine, provided that I work hard. The concepts aren't difficult, it's just so darn easy to make a mistake. Anyway--time yesterday just raced away--I got up and was out the door by 9 for my long walk--gorgeous autumn day for it. I reviewed some stats, then went to the library to pick up a hold, and downtown to the street vendors for tacos. THEY WEREN'T THERE! There's construction in the area. I had no backup plans for lunch. And I really wasn't hungry, but I'd only had/wanted 1 pumpkin muffin during my walk and I figured I needed something. The Greek Festival was going on, but they always have huge lines. Using true addictive convoluted thinking I reasoned that I should get greek food from the mall because I probably wouldn't want any dinner and so the points would sort of be ok. Turned out to be true. I ate my fully loaded gyro plate---meat, salad, pita bread, fries with extra white sauce while studying. Vacummed, studied some more, took a nap, went to Women's conference, did some late night shopping and called it a day.
Today will be more normal point-wise, but still way overbalanced with almost all points coming tonight. I'll have one pancake for b-fast with fruit. A blt for lunch, and a big fajita dinner with guac and chips and black beans and for dessert 1/2 cup of mint ice-cream (new receipe from the new dieter's cookbook) and a new ww dish--apple pie wontons. Sounds yummy. It feels so good to be in the 180's.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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