Mom came up for dinner last night. It was good to have her. I made a modified version of Athenian chicken breasts and a very light lemon torte. Mom loved the torte. I thought it was ok. I'm still frustrated, but am taking Dave's advice and not getting on the scale until Friday. Instead, I'm going to continue on the plan while enjoying my 18 pound lighter body. I'm also wondering about digestion. I'm feeling that things just aren't moving through--shall we say, as well as they used to. I wonder if oil is the problem? WW says you're supposed to have 2 tsp of healthy oil every day. I've always ignored that--figuring that even on ww I get plenty of fat because I'm fond of butter and cheese. Plus, you don't just get those 2 tsp for free. You have to count the points for them, but maybe having them will help things slide along. I'm going to compromise on the points. I'll use one of them and count it and the other will come from activity points (I never use the activity points). This might just be wishful thinking--adding oil is easy, reducing portion sizes even more is hard and I don't want to do it.
Challenge for the day is a luncheon that I forgot about. I'm the advisor for one of the student senators and this is the introductory lunch. I'll do my best. Otherwise the day is on track. Breakfast felt abundant--a big bowl of bran cereal, bacon and and a pumpkin muffin. Dinner is a mystery chili from the freezer (I only make healthy chili so it's fine) and mini corn muffins I made last night 2 pts. each.
I walked to work today--weather will be perfect all week long, and will lift weights after work. My legs are TIRED from Saturday's walk!! I didn't think the walk would affect like it did. I just walked! I walk almost everyday! I'm glad I did it though--it'll make me take the build up to the half marathon a lot more seriously.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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