Today's highlight will definitley be the full size, fully loaded snickers bar I intend to have! I saved up points specially for it.
Boy, I had all kinds of things to say and I can't think of a single one just now--probably because I'm so sleepy. I don't know why though--I slept well. Anyway, I'm trying out the oil thing. I put a tsp in my cream of wheat this morning--made for a slightly soupier texture--very smooth and not at all bad.
Lunch will be interesting--it's a collection of little random stuff. I love those kinds of meals. My favorite foods are appetizers. Maybe that's why I like airline meals--cute little things all wrapped up separately. I once saw a special on Michael Jackson and apparentley he always had his staff wrap up his food in plastic as though it were being served from a hotel cafeteria. That's weird habit, but I understand why he did that. It adds to the specialness factor. You wouldn't think someone that rich would need that but I guess in a lot of ways he never grew up. In my case eating out was very rare in my childhood. It just wasn't done. So it was a big deal when it happened. Also, any kind of vending machine food, or plastic wrapped food usually meant I was on an exciting vacation. Also, since buying food ready made is expensive, I still have a feeling of well-being and extravagence anytime I buy food from anywhere other than a grocery store. Even having a soda from a gas station feels like a little mini-vacation. Lunch today is from the kitchen, but still varied. I'm having--a cup of soup, 24 baked tortilla chips, 1/2 cup spinach dip, a dozen olives, zucchini slices, an apple, deli meats with cream cheese, and of course--THE SNICKERS BAR. I have class tonight, so I made a point of brining a snack--a banana with PB2. I might have a bit of the candy bar for lunch and the rest before class, I'll have to see how hungry I am.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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