Math party was FUN! Desserts were great alas, but again they weren't nearly the challenge that the appetizer table was. Undoubtedly, I was over points, but I was also much more reasonable than I would have been otherwise. As a small savings I had my hamburger as an openface sandwich. I got out the top and bottom and then realized that I don't even LIKE hamburger buns--why was I having two? Come to think of it, why did I even bother to have one? I guess having one enabled me to pick it up. Next time I'll use the knife and fork option.
Today was a much better more on-track day. A nice Sunday. I walked the 5K again, this time as fast as I could walk it (50 min). I did a lot of baking. I made baked tortilla chips, spinach dip, mini-cheesecakes (4 points!), pumpkin chocolate chip muffins (also 4 points), and a loaf of bread. And chicken enchiladas for dinner--very good---left on my own I would have put on at least quadruple the amount of cheese, but truly, they were ok with the very modest amount that I did use.
Last night I visited my overweight friend from the ward. I was struck again by the difference in her behaviors and mine, she's supposedly on weight watchers too, but not really. She isn't anywhere near ready to make the changes. I brought over six 1 point chocolate cookies. She ate all six (not a hard thing to do) and then some crackers with Nutella, without noticing I think, that she was eating anything at all. The weird thing is that that snack isn't really all that out of the ordinary for me either. But somewhere there is a difference--I weigh about 100 pounds or more less than she does. What am I doing right from day to day (I bet the 5K helped) that she isn't yet? Maybe I'm just slightly more aware? More importantly for me, what are the key differences in the way I behave from the way my skinny friends behave? Maybe they're even more aware? I did notice at yesterday's party that TH--who is a graduate from Westpoint, did NOT hit the dessert table.
Off to plot tomorrow's points. I'm glad I did the baking. I feel as though the house is full of good things to eat.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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