Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Wednesday, September 7, 2011

158 Rolls

The weather is perfect, and I'm loving walking to work.  I made a sort of thin decision as I was preparing my lunch for today.  Tonight we're having "spicy corn soup" a ww recipie that Jennifer raved about. I'll have to take her ravings with more of a grain of salt--like the oatmeal, it's good, but not wonderful.  Anyway, I made a batch of italian rolls (baseballs) to go with it. I love these things. I'm planning on having 2 with dinner and I had planned to have 2 with lunch as well, but the rolls turned out on the big side and as I was looking at them I decided to just have one for lunch, because truly it would be enough, and spend the other roll points on some snackwells fudge cookies.  This decision doesn't seem like much--in fact it doesn't help me at all calorie or weight loss wise, but it's still a step in the right direction. It's a move away from mammoth portions without deprivation. It has the same feeling as the pizza choice the other day. On Saturday I had two pieces because I could. Today I could have two rolls for lunch, but I'm opting for one.  Practice, practice, practice.  That's what this journey takes.
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