Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Thursday, July 12, 2012

467 soft food

Yesterday went well. I tried the gas for the first time at the dentist and am disappointed!! I think it worked somewhat in that the procedure wasn't painful, but I didn't feel like I was floating or that I was in an exceptionally good mood or anything. Bummer. Oh well. I had brought a healthy lunch but my evil co-worker temptress, Jane brought up a plate from the staff barbeque. The thing that got me there was the blackberry cobbler. WOW YUM!! That was the end of the healthy lunch idea. Rationalizing that I probably would be eating much dinner I went to the BBQ--Delicious! Weber State does us well. They had au gratin potatoes--something I never, ever make. Gosh, I could eat that by the pound. However, true to my rationalization--I really didn't want much dinner. We went to Lisa's house and she fixed a chicken and rice casserole that happened to be perfect for me--very soft. The family meeting went great! I think we got things basically set up in the right direction and I feel that my way is clearer now to be able to help my sister in a truly meaningful way. Today is still a "soft food" day--and darn it, I forgot to bring snacks! I might have to run up the the bookstore for some--I'm not supposed to have things like chips and nuts and spicy food--which means that all I want is spicy food. Well, that's not quite true---It's a little later now, and I did go up and buy a banana and a nutri-grain bar and now I've just finished a very good (meanng both tasty and healthy) lunch and am feeling good all around. Now, if I can only work in a nap---I've got 9 minutes till my next student comes.

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