Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Monday, November 28, 2011

238 Cheetos

Hey!  Amazingly I did not gain any weight this weekend.  I have no idea how that happened--I recklessly indulged in all of my bad habits--things like grabbing a handful of nuts everytime I passed through the kitchen--stuff like that. And the cheeseball....Darn it.  It's always the cheeseball that gets me.  I'll simply have to have it more often so it isn't such a rarity in my life.  I have to admit though it is with some degree of relief that I return to more moderate ways today. I really don't like feeling stupified with fats and sugars---and I REALLY don't want to throw away all my hard work.  I'm taking today's weight as a pure gift and moving forward, and today's menu sounds great to me.  Breakfast--cream of wheat cereal made with milk and topped with raspberries and splenda. Lunch--a "cup of soup" a roast beef deli wrap, olives, a dill pickle, a broiled jalapeno with cream cheese, and just a few cheetos.  Darn the cheetos!! They are not all created equally!  We once bought a bag where the serving size was 21 and the points were 3.  I noticed last night that the serving size on this bag was only 15 puffs.  FIVE points!  I can't decide if I'm glad I double checked or not, but in any case I brought only 3 points woth with me today.  It's cold, but not too cold, so I walked to work.  I need to get back to the strength training as well, but realistically, I probably won't until after Christmas.  Just now I'm overwhelmed with getting ready for Christmas early, planning out Hawaii, and dealing with family, and finishing my stats class. (Last lab on Wednesday hooray!).  Of course doing the strength training will help considerably with stress--one thing at a time. If I can get the food under control that will be a big step forward.  It helps that me and Dave went through the fridge and threw a lot of it out last night.
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