Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Saturday, May 28, 2011

Week over

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Week over and I'm glad.  It's been the most difficult food week yet.  Mom seems to have come through the surgery ok.  She's already out of ICU and off the respirator. We went down to see her---only stayed about 10 minutes because she was clearly exhausted.  I'm just glad she's still here.  We won't find out until Wednesday if cancer will be a problem.  We had stopped by the house first to do some cleaning and gardening and afterward went to Gardiner village just a short distance from the hospital.  Gardiner village is a charming collection of shops and they were having a sidewalk sale.  The original plan was to get home and make dinner, but we were too tired from gardening and too tempted by the restraunt they have there.  To my credit I DID say we should go home, but I admit I put up zero fight when Dave and Catherine wanted to stay and eat.  I did too.   I had the cobb salad--hopefully one of the better choices---it would have been a great choice if I had had the light dressing, but what's a cobb salad without blue cheese?  Dave really went all out and ordered the spinach artichoke appetizer too.  Not much self-control there.  We came home and made smores--we have a tiny house, but it has a terrific fireplace.  I'm ready for a fresh start next week.  I wouldn't be surprised though if I did come out ahead today--I was very careful with breakfast and lunch, got a lot of exercise and was never overly full--when I feel like that it usually means weight is coming off.  It's nearly midnight now, so I'm done eating.  I've felt very skinny all day long because my pants are about ready to fall off my body--course they've been big on me for a long time now--they only ever really fit at my all time top weight, about 30 pounds ago.  Still, it's a nice feeling.

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