Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Friday, May 6, 2011

Down 10 pounds!

Hey!!  Down TWO pounds this week for a total of 10!! I'm almost down to what I think I weigh anyway. Actually, anything after this point is exciting--and it feels really good even now.  My clothes fit again and I think my legs feel a little sleeker.  Only 43 pounds to go.  That doesn't sound too bad.  At the one WW meeting I went to they showed an anatomically correct pound of fat.

 I've seen it before, but this time it hit me more forcibly-losing (or gaining) just one pound or even a half of a pound is a BIG deal.  Every one of those 43 pounds will have a noticable impact on my appearance, and on my overall body function.  So!  Carry on I will. 

I'm still under the weather today, but I'm pretty sure it's allergies.  I slept much better than I expected to and don't feel quite as exhausted.  Unfortunately, I have my annual check-up this afternoon which means fasting for the blood work.  This is probably a bad day to fast when I already feel low energy, but I'll survive.  At least, unlike a religious fast, I can have water. Thank heavens it's Friday.  Tonight just me and Dave are driving up to lava hot springs---sitting in a hot mineral tub sounds fantastic just now.  We'll have a nice dinner somewhere--WITH dessert!  Man, I hit a sugar wall yesterday. The core plan is distinctly lacking in sugar and refined foods.  It didn't bother me much until yesterday. I had wanted to save points for dessert after dinner, but was dying for a dessert--I looked through the cookbooks and decided I was too tired to make anything anyway and just had a snickers egg which I'm calling two points.  It did the trick.  The other really helpful thing is diet hot chocolate.  Love that stuff--25 calories and I add light whipping cream.  It's super helpful because it takes a relatively long time to drink it, so I'm "engaged with food" for a satisfying amount of time.  I won't pig out after the fast today, but I will have what I want for dinner.  Tomorrow breakfast and lunch might be off-plan, but dinner can be on.  I have to get a three hour walk in this weekend and it'll probably be Sunday--which is good because that is Mom's rouladen dinner.  After that it's back on the core plan for the rest of the week.  Here's to success!!!
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