Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Friday, May 20, 2011

Down another pound!

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Down another pound!!! --or rather three pounds from last week which was two pounds up.  Down to 197 for 11 pounds lost.  YES!!!  I postponed eating breakfast this morning so I could weigh in at the student health center--I have to hit 201 to have the insurance pay for weight watchers and I was worried about evil doctor scales and the fact that I was wearing jeans.  Good enough!  I have the official little paper to fax in.   I'm especially pleased with this morning's loss because I'm sure I haven't digested last night's dinner.  FORGET a polish dog---I had an inspiration on the way to BYU---Schlotzkey's deli--which serves the best pastrami and swiss and had the best salt and vinegar chips I've ever tasted.  Probably has a million calories, but who cares???  I ate as wisely as I possibly could beforehand ---a 4 point breakfast (raisin toast with cream cheese and raspberries) and a 4 point lunch (zero point soup with 4 wasa crackers and 2 laughing cow cheeses) so I had 21 points to blow on dinner and it felt good.  I'll have plenty of points today too because of the extra weekly points--I think I'll have a peanut-butter cup with lunch.  :)

The mom-front is better too.  At least there is a solid diagnosis--she does have a bile duct blockage and will need surgery.  She's scheduled for the 31st (a week away) but Lisa is trying to get her in sooner.  I hope she can cause Mom sounds pretty miserable--it's the itching that's driving her insane.  But a blocked duct is looking more serious to us (especially Lisa) than it seems to be to the doctor. I think in a way I'm more worried about Lisa than I am about Mom.  Any surgery is dangerous especially when a person is over 70, but I'm at peace with the idea of death,  Lisa doesn't seem to be yet.

1/2 marathon is tomorrow--yea! and Catherine's party is tomorrow a hopefully yea! moment.  I'll be relieved when that's over. I just hope people will come.

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