Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Sunday, May 22, 2011

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   Owwwwww.  My feet hurt---amazingly, my knees did great, but my feet!  Owwwww.  But that's not important.  What IS important is the Catherine graduated from seminary today.  I'm so proud of my girl.  She was picked to be one of the speakers as well and did a beautiful job.  I am truly a lucky mom.

   Food-wise--today--not exactly sterling--though it was fun to plug my weight into the weight watcher online graph and get all kinds of stars for hitting the 5% mark.   Now, tomorrow (graduation) and Tuesday and Wednedsay (double buffets at the conference) are a sort of excuse not to count points very well.  But today?  What was the excuse again?  I didn't exactly do badly, but I didn't count which is sloppy and I have a healthy fear of going completely off track.  SO---here's to what I DID do right, so I can remind myself to at least make better choices, even if I lose my grip a little at outback and the upcoming buffets.  For breakfast, I had my normal one pancake with fruit.  Lunch was where things went off with a big piece of bacon bacon bacon pizza--however, I had one big piece and one very little piece (normally, I would have had three) and a big salad. Instead of eating the extra pizza I wanted, I had a banana. Since I knew the graduation would have treats, I only had an Andes mint instead of something much larger.  Dinner was moderate.  I was surprised at the graduation!  I figured they'd have punch and cookies, but they had platters of cheese and meat and chips and fruit for a real meal as well as a dessert table.  Yikes!!  Normally, I would have had a full-on second dinner, but I contented myself with a slice of swiss cheese, some fruit, a little nut cup, and a cookie (should have let the cookie go---it wasn't that good).    Soooooo, well.....not great, but still genuine improvement over status quo.

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