501 BIG intuitive

I tried to eat intuitively last night and today, but I dunno----I still think I'm waaaaaaay overeating. Last night I went to SLC. I wasn't hungry but still was thinking of dinner. I decided to wait, and in the end skipped it altogether. No problem I think--I'd eaten a plenty big lunch (non-intuitive, I wasn't hungry). I think my hunger signals are a little off. I wasn't hungry for breakfast particularly, but I could feel that I was empty and I wanted something even though I didn't feel hungry in the sense that I recognize it, so I ate the apple and granola bar that I brought. I little later I ate the 100 cal cheese nips. I had gotten up early to work and I WAS hungry at 10:30. Early for lunch, but I could tell I was hungry and my energy was flagging. I went to crown burger and ordered the single souvlaki dinner--something I've never ordered before because the idea of just one skewer of meat always seemed too tiny to fill me up. Actually, it came with a pita, AND fries AND salad. It was plenty. As it turned out I didn't go to the cheesecake factory for dinner after all. I was just too tired and grungy. I got a slice of white chocolate macadamia nut carmel cheesecake, which is every bit as delicious as it sounds, and took it home. I must say I spent a lot of money on luxury food today. I got the cheesecake--then I got an order of boneless buffalo wings. I put this in the fridge and decided to do some stuff around the house before dinner. I mopped the floor, then went to Smiths where I also bought--a beef stick, fancy olives, a piece of English stilton cheese, a tube of orange rolls, a steak for tomorrow's dinner, some Doritos and milk. $30 for that! I don't know when I've paid so much and come home with so little. It was EXACTLY the dinner I wanted though. I wish I could say that it didn't take much to fill me up, but it did. Which is frustrating, because I didn't feel all that outwardly hungry for dinner. Still, I felt like my body needed some food besides the fact that I really was excited about all the delicious things I bought. I ate almost all the buffalo wings (which I happen to know are about 1000 cal all by themselves, many slices of beef stick with mustard, 2 big slices of sourdough bread with lots of I can't believe it's not butter, fresh grape tomatoes from the garden, watermelon and some of the Stilton, which is just a really rich blue cheese. For dessert I had most of the cheesecake. I'd like to say that I needed all that food because I was working all day packing up Mom's house, but the truth is that it wasn't very demanding physically--other than that I did do a lot of standing. I was very careful of my back and so mostly just moved slowly and put things in boxes which I left standing where they were. I never once broke a sweat. A couple of good things---I realized that I didn't want the olives or the Doritos with dinner today. Also, I realized that I was thinking far too much about where I was going to have dinner. So I kept reminding myself that I could just do what I felt like when I was ready, because today was not a special "blow out" occasion. I could eat at any restaurant at any time this week while Dave's gone, and after he comes back I can STILL eat anything or go anywhere--so relax already!