The sale went well. Christine wants to keep it going for a few more days. More power to her. I was well and truly done. It was hard to let sentimental stuff go--especially at prices far below the item value, but the important thing is that it went. Boxes and boxes of stuff were packed and taken away that I didn't have to pack and take away. From here on out it's cleaning and taking stuff to DI or the dumpster. Dave and I are going down tonight.
Food-wise--I think/hope the book is right. The compulsion to eat really DOES seem to be calming down. I didn't eat much during the sale itself--I was busy and tired and hot. The day's intake amounted to 2 fiber 1 bars, an apple, some crackers and cheese and 1 slice of cold thin crust pizza. It was more than plenty. Afterward we went to the Olive Garden. I genuinely ate plenty--but I didn't feel like ordering an extra bowl of salad and I only ate 2 breadsticks (we did have the brioche appetizer though) and 1/2 of my entree. We shared a rich dessert. So, yes--still a calorie disaster no doubt, but not as crazy as it has been in the past. I wasn't overly full, but I had no desire to eat more. Yesterday was even more unusual. It was fast Sunday, which means to eat nothing including water for at least two meals. the idea isn't to pig out when the fast is over, but that's usually what it amounts to. We had porkchops, corn on the cob, watermelon and sweetpotatoes for dinner. I surprised myself by being done before I'd finished the porkchop. That NEVER happens. It actually felt really good. I wasn't overstuffed and I didn't want to be--even on a fast Sunday! I saved the rest of the chop, threw away the uneaten corn on the cob and later enjoyed the chocolate melting cake.
Today I'm looking forward to the rest of my Olive Garden Ravioli. I'm also excited to keep working on the 12 step questions. I'm still on step one--the hardest step I think. It's extraordinarly difficult to let go and admit that I need God's help on this. I think the exploration of why I fight so hard to retain the freedom to do this myself is a huge key