Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

395 Anniversary!

Feeling better about myself and life in general today. Yes, I can do this and yes, everything will be fine.  I'm glad I feel more cheerful today because yesterday marked the worst day of eating in the past year. Not calorie-wise, but nutrition-wise. Yuck. Breakfast was two slices of delicious homemade sourdough with a reasonable amount of cheese broiled on top. I had a banana for a snack--so far, so good.  Lunch was horrible in every way. Down with Teriayki Stix--Blech. I didn't look closely enough at the menu to realize that the bowls didn't automatically come with veggie. I had low-grade orange chicken--probably deep fried and treated to death on a bed of white rice and that's all. It was the most unappealing meal I've ever seen. For once I really was more interested in my friend more than the food. I picked at it and had an apple when I got back to the office. Family crisis erupted at 4:30--appetite canceled for the rest of the day. Thank goodness our health isn't based on just one poor day.  Probably the easiest thing would be to just make contact with my family every day and solve my weight loss problem once and for all.
Today it feels good to get back to something normalish. Cream of wheat with Mom's raspberries for breakfast, wasa bread and laughing cow cheese for snack, HG deep dish spinach pizzas for lunch with a cabbage salad. We're going to soak in the mineral pools at crystal hotsprings and go out to eat for our anniversary today--23 years!!.  So, not a great day with food, but at least I walked to work and tomorrow should be a better day.

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