Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

403 Track and brownies

Whoops! I must have missed yesterday. Sorry about that. Catherine did come up, and since the treadmills were full I thought I'd try the track--reasoning that it was a nice squishy surface as opposed to concrete. It worked! At least my knees felt as good as they do on the treadmill. I ran TWO miles without stopping!! I am darn proud of that. My pace is still super slow--it was about a 13 minute mile, but that pace is fast enough for the Disneyland half-marathon someday--just 11 miles more!

Yesterday was poor exercise wise--come to think of it, it was poor overall. I had to drive because I had my annual checkup--so health kudos for that at least. Then I couldn't work on the lazy man because I had a bunch of plants that needed to go in the garden. I rushed home, did gardening for half and hour then went to the RS activity. Oh my! They did a beautiful job! Especially with the food--little chicken salad crossaints, cucumber sandwiches, tortilla wraps with swiss cheese, little really rich brownies and cream puffs (one virtue--I'm actually not to fond of cream puffs).  I ate plenty, then went home and gardened until well past dark, I hope that burned off a few calories at least.

The current plan is to just hold the line until Catherine leaves and then make another big push. I'd like to let go of another 10 or 15 pounds and then hold the line there for awhile before the final (that's an exciting word!) push to the goal.

Tonight Catherine's coming up and the plan is to swim 20 laps for iron man and dinner should be reasonable. I'm having a little trouble lately because we haven't been fixing food that produces lunch leftovers so I'm in a rut. Also, I'm doing a super boring project today so all I want to do is eat.  Gum is a good thing.

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