Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Saturday, May 26, 2012

420 cheese

I did great yesterday for lunch--I had a huge amount of veggies, which works out to probably more nutrition than I've had in the last three weeks.  Dinner wasn't up to plan--instead of our usual we decided to try something new and went to Picolo bros pizza. Oh dear. The salad alone was a problem. But, although I ate too much, I ate less than I ccould have. Also, instead of going out for ice-cream on top of things, I ate a ww ice-cream sandwich for dessert.

Today was challenging as well. A rainy day. We went to Logan to go to the temple. That meant lunch out AND the gossner cheese factory. I LOVE cheese curds. I had a huge hummus wrap for lunch and some black bean soup. Don't know if that was a great point choice, but it was a great nutritious choice at least. The chips and salsa weren't great, but they were good. The cheese factory was too crowded to eat all that I wanted (which again is to the good), but I ate too much anyway.  The good news there is that the swiss and onion spread turns out to be an excellent point choice! Hurray!  And cheese curds are 3 pts per ounce like any other cheese.  I can live with that.

Tomorrow we're having meatloaf for dinner.  I'm going to have a simply filling day so I can eat the baked potato and as much meatloaf as I like. It's a rocky re-start, but it IS a restart. I'm ready to see some new numbers on the scale.

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