Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Thursday, May 31, 2012

425 a good breakfast

I made it through yesterday on track--luckily the Mary Kay party just had doughnut holes (a so so treat in my book) and I left (after an hour and a half!) before they even opened the boxes. Because I was so hungry yesterday, I'm having a "simply filling" day today. I started with a really good breakfast of bacon (2 pts) eggs, an english muffin, milk and juice. Lunch will be as much meatloaf as I want (which paradoxically might not be that much--I want a good scale result tomorrow), some rolls, yogurt, a pickle and a jello pudding snack for dessert. Dinner will be turkey burgers and oven fries and watermelon. Timing has been hard--Happily, Nanette, my harp teacher can give me my lesson at home tonight--so I'll have time to "run" a 5K and get the fries in the oven and still have a lesson and eat at a normal time. At work, there are doughnuts--but again luckily, they are Krispy Kreme. Meh. Now if they were cake doughnuts or cookies, I might be having more trouble, but I'm doing well. The weekend challenge will be a movie--I'm wanting to see Snow White and the Huntsman--popcorn feels mandatory--but I don't need to have a large and I certainly don't need to eat the big movie feast--of a big grilled sandwich AND jr's AND a oreo shake AND popcorn. The popcorn will be sin enough. I'll make sure I eat something big and filling before I go so I'm not tempted to wolf down half a ton of popcorn.
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