Wow---I'm in complete food/vacuum cleaner inhale mode. I am STARVING--and it's not for lack of nutrients. For breakfast I had a bowl of oatmeal with apples and cinnamon, 2 strips of bacon, milk and diet juice--you don't get a much more filling breakfast than that. For a "snack" I've already had a baggie of popcorn, a banana, a plate of veggies with a little dip, some slices of cheese, some salami and some crackers. Thank goodness lunch is coming, I'm STARVED.
At least not all of this is pure addiction (I hope), part of this must be because I'm tired. Yesterday I went to run my mile and it was so much harder to run the one mile yesterday than it was to run the 2 miles the day before. In fact, I didn't even make it running--I had to slow down and alternate between 4 adn 4.5 mph. I don't worry about speed in swimming, but I'm sure my laps were slow too. Then I walked home--it was a beautiful evening--since we live on a busy street friends do drive by from time to time and offer me rides. I almost always decline, but I would have jumped on the offer yesterday. I figure if I were going to compete in a real iron-man I'd be tired too, so it's all good. Since Catherine's leaving this Sunday (WAAAAAAHHHH!) I might take a rest day tomorrow, but today I'm determined to plow through 2 more miles.
The plan is to get back on track completely on Monday. Challenges are immediate. Monday is my co-worker's retirement party--FOOD! Tuesday and Wednesday is the UAOA conference--FOOD plus a great bakery. Sheesh. The plan is to be perfectly on track for breakfast and dinner and try and be reasonable for lunch. Hopefully, this hungry phase will pass otherwise I might be in big touble.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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