Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.

The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!

Friday, May 25, 2012

419 pizza

I'm saving a  bunch of points (22 to be exact) so I can have 2 big slices of pizza and a cabbage salad for dinner. It feels good to be back on track even if I'd prefer to have 22 points for lunch AND 5 pieces of pizza. I had 7 pts for breakfast---a lite bagel with laughing cow cheese and some cottage cheese, and lunch will be a baked potato with a TON of veggies and some yogurt. Also a side of tomato and onion salad. I had a banana and some wasa crisp for a snack and I still have some PB2 that I forgot to eat with the banana. So, I'm not going to starve, it just isn't exactly what I want. However, the pizza IS what I want and it isn't very far away. Also, I'm excited to see some new numbers on the scale. This is memorial day weekend--but I'm not feeling like that's a big enough reason to go haywire.

Yesterday's run was SOOO much better. Not going into it all weighed down made a huge difference. I had no trouble with 2 miles going between 5 and 5.5 mph. I really wonder about my "lack" of any sports ability when I was a kid. Sports always embarrassed me--first, I never knew the rules and never had any practice, so of course I was always worst, but I was always so much slower than everybody else too--I wonder if that was partly because I was weighed down with heavy plum cake for breakfast? I bet that's partially it. Too bad, I needed the exercise.

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