Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Monday, August 15, 2011

135 assertive

I need to learn to be much more assertive.  I've been noticing a lot of instances lately where I've been far too much of a pushover. I bought something on ebay, and the item was never sent (don't buy from gem0129 by the way). I did email her twice and she responded quickly assuring me it was on the way, I gave her a full three wks after her last response. Too much time. After 45 days ebay closes the account and after 60 you are completely out of luck. On Saturday I had my first manicure. It was AWFUL. I do a much better job myself, I should have said something, but I was tired and fed up with being there and just accepted the lousy job rather than say something. On Sunday I made a phone call to an RS sister---now granted, I completely dropped the ball on this particular committee so she had the wrong idea of what the committee was supposed to do--she said something a bit snippy. I gave her a little info and smoothed it over, but I should have said more than I did.  I'm just always so afraid of saying too much or hurting someone's feelings. More times than not I'm glad I DIDN'T say the negative thing I thought.  But that doesn't mean I need to be a total doormat.  I did make some strides today sort of.  Dealing with general family misery I did manage to send an email that said exactly what I needed.  It has worked out so far about as best as I can expect.  I think I was kind but still said what I needed.
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