Well----not bad. All fruits free and almost all veggies really helps. Plus I feel as though 49 extra points a week is reasonably generous and I can earn as many extra activity points as I want. Still... this is going to be hard. I have that feeling right now that tells me 1. I'm losing weight and 2. I'd like to munch on something. But, it's hard to feel too deprived with what I've eaten today---2 slices of toast with butter, banana, milk, roast beef tortilla wrap, apple, 1/2 fat slice of hot parmesan bread from great harvest, 1 cup of brown rice, about 25 wontons with soy sauce and chinese sauce, a big cabbage salad with feta cheese and olives, and an evening bowl of strawberries and milk. Tomorrow promises orange rolls, a bacon sandwich and fajitas plus a new mini apple turnover reciepe. Not bad--but very conscious.
The online website is genuinely impressive--although I haven't figured out all the glitches yet. The meeting for newbies was only slightly irritating. It's good to hear of success, on the down side the big guy said he gets 63 points! (I get 30) The leader made a comment about how men get more and it's unfair but, "we won't go there!" Oh yeah??? WHY NOT??? That sort of unfair feeling is exactly where a weight meeting SHOULD go! Granted, there wasn't time today, but these meetings never get to the real issues. However, they DO have support and GREAT recipies, if not the actual POINTS CALCULATOR to buy!! Lucky I have access to the internet or else I'd be relying on the extremely limited booklet. Apparently WW was surprised at the demand for the calculator. HUH? It's THE major tool. I'd imagine most would want it. Also, the leader made a big deal about how we no longer count points. Whatever. Now we count "points plus"--which is exactly the same principle only made a bit harder because carbs and protein are factored in. These little "disconnects" really bug me. I'm doing my best to remember that weight watchers is not infested with trolls out to spoil my fun. LOTS of people there have lost weight and kept it off. Thank goodness though for OA and the gospel, and this blog, and also the message boards on ww who are inhabited by real people!
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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