Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Sunday, October 23, 2011

203 Hike the Y!

Back after a fun weekend at BYU with Catherine. It is such an amazing place. So much about it is world class, it's just exciting to be there and wonderful that Catherine is there now too.  I met with the therapist on Friday morning and he sent me home with a big wrap around brace--I don't know what I expected the brace to look like, but I was expecting something more important looking. Doesn't matter---that brace worked!! I could feel that it was holding my knee where it was supposed to be--so I could walk and climb stairs and do everything without worrying!  It made all the difference!!!!  I walked all over on Friday and on Saturday I hiked the Y--about 2.5 miles round trip but really steep.  I was worried about the downhill part but I did just fine!! Today I'm taking it easy, but tomorrow I will put the brace on and walk to work. YAY!!  Food-wise....JDawgs and Awful waffle were great.  It's somehow fitting that one of the places where I used to live now serves waffles were one can order a half a stick of butter as a side!!  YIKES!  I passed on the extra butter, figuring the nutella was sin enough.  The luau was a big let down food wise. Mediocre carbs carbs and more carbs.  I've got to learn to quit eating mediocre food--it's one thing to ingest a bunch of calories because something is wonderful and I'm truly enjoying it. It's another thing altogether to eat a bunch and not even get any pleasure out of it.  I should have simply had the chocolate cake and been done with it.  I was afraid to get on the scale today--I'm sure the exercise didn't compensate for the food, but I will tomorrow and not lose heart. The marathon is back on track and so am I. It's easy to slip back into good habits. Almost a relief.  A pancake for breakfast, a wrap for lunch, and a potroast for dinner and fresh baked cinnamon pull a-parts for dessert.  I still miss big chunks of cheese, but by and large I can live like this.
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