Losing weight in spite of myself.

I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.



The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.

The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.

There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.

Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!







Wednesday, October 12, 2011

192 on a whim

Well! Last night's dinner plans went straight out the window. I was lonely for Catherine all day and she wasn't texting either. It was a beautiful fall day, the car just had a tune-up, I wasn't really needed at RS--so I decided on the spur of the moment to drive out to Provo and take Catherine out to dinner. Unfortunatley we found what has to be the most medicre Thai food in the state. Disappointing--but the company was first rate! Afterwards we went to the creamery where I had a single scoop of mint brownie fudge ice-cream. I have no idea where the points were last night. The ice-cream was at least 10 and the dinner would either be excellent or very poor depending on how much oil they cooked stuff in.  Exercise-wise, I'm still down and out, but getting better. I went to the physical therapist today ($35!!!), and he said I should be good for the 1/2 marathon!!  I'll be under prepared, but I'm still hoping that less weight and better shoes will compensate.  I'm cleared to walk for now but to not "over do".  I plan to be careful---I have to drive to work tomorrow, but should be able to walk up on Friday. Am on track today---things like cheese curds are still hard--I don't want 2 ounces--I WANT half the bag!!! I ate 2 ounces and really, am just fine.
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