Oh crud. I must have overdone the knee with the 5K yesterday. It felt just a little achy today, so I just took a gentle walk with Dave on a local trail (getting a traffic ticket on the way to the trail). It felt really good on the trail--it went uphill and I was getting to the point where I couldn't tell the difference between uphill and down.
Walked the block to church and back---still ok. Walked to a members house----NOT ok. It's not back out, but I could feel my knee moving everywhere. I walked very slowly. Now I'm icing and taking ibu and grumbling.
I was very good about points today. I guess I really do want to break into the 170's before Hawaii, and it's simply not going to happen without work. Honestly, today I'm not suffering much. I'm going to try to keep it to 30 pts a day since I still have all these darn exceptions coming up on an almost daily basis---coming up Friday, an all you can eat luau. Anyway, I had a pancake and milk for breakfast, a deli meat wrap (4 pts) for lunch with 6 olives and 3 pts of cheeto puffs and a little raw cauliflower. And a decent slice of meatloaf, 1 cup of mashed potatoes, mixed veggies, and a big bowl of pudding for dinner. Still, I'm irked. I realize the scale is not that great of a measure, but considering that I've been lax, it probably IS a good measure this time, and like I said, I hate it when I get what I deserve---as opposed to what I want! And yes, I AM still throwing a tantrum.
This experience sums up well what I feel like today---I made homemade hard rolls--these are 3 pts a piece and are nicknamed "baseballs" by the family. Yeah, well today they turned out the size of ping-pong balls. Fitting.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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