A milestone day! Today is the day that by blog day exceeds my weight! I realize that this is random, but it still feels good. This is a testiment to the benefits of slow weight-loss---excruciatingly slow in my humble opinion. But it works!! I mentioned in yesterdays blog that I was up a few pounds--up to 191 to be exact. No surprises there, I REALLY enjoyed the dessert bar and other Denver goodies. I've been home and back on track--not counting, but back to things I normally eat--all of two days and this morning, I'm back to 187! BRAVO!! The body really does work both ways---I feel as though I sweat and skimp and work and only very reluctantly does my weight do anything but move up. Well, it's the same when I indulge--apparently my body took my Denver indescrestions and went "What the heck is all this?" and did whatever it took to put my weight back to what it thinks it is--which is happily 187.
The insurance--another hurrah for the PEHP people, is working with me too. I emailed my person there and asked what I should do as the evil doctor's scales claim I did not meet my goal for the Aug/Sept block. No prob. I have a 30 day extension to get the doc scales to register 187--which means my scales here need to say 185. Hopefully that won't be a problem. I wish I could do some walking today---I guess I'll be doing a little bit of limping around. We're driving up to Logan to see the leaves and visit the cheese factory. Love cheese curds--but I will go easy on them---or at least have a very light lunch. I'm HOPING my stomach virus has finally worked itself out. When I woke up today Dave had made bacon and eggs and that actually sounded good, so I ate breakfast for the first time in about two weeks because I wanted to not because I felt I had to.
And lastly, a fun little happy thing. When I was at the airport checking in, I looked at my drivers license and saw that I actually weigh less than what it says on the license. Is that even legal? It feels great, because naturally, I lied about my weight at the time.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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