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Two hours and 10 minutes more at work and then I'm officially on vacation! To ARUBA!! I just love the thought of saying--"I'm going to Aruba tomorrow" and have it be actually true. Mom is feeling much better, so that helps me feel less guilty about going.
Food-wise is going to have to be a matter of prayer the whole time. I sort of am tracking today, but it's hard, because I have no idea what's for dinner tonight--we're just trying to eat as many perishables as we can before we leave--which is good because that means fruits and veggies (and a full loaded ice-cream cupcake from Coldstones) I had cream of wheat for breakfast, a pork chop and a salad for lunch, a 3 pt snack of crackers and then just now--four squares of a Ritter sport hazelnut chocolate bar--whoops! what was that? The rationale--if you can call it that, was that I meant to take one or two squares, but the other two just fell out and they were the only two left and the candy bars been there for weeks now and it seemed silly to leave it any longer...Huh? There is a perfectly good garbage can by my side--or I could have left it. Chocolate lasts forever. I'm glad I just wrote this. I'm going to go on the WW site right away and track the silly thing. I find I do enjoy my indugences much much more if I know they aren't going to hurt me. Had I tracked that candybar first it would have been more delicious. Live and learn.
Tomorrow we don't leave until the late afternoon. So--fridge foraging for breakfast and lunch and then airport food for dinner. I LOVE airport food. I'm weird, I love airports. To me they mean romance and adventure. I even love airplane food---little compartments of lots of different stuff. I will try hard to remember that Burger King is Burger King whether it's in an airport or in the city--it's the same thing. So---no tracking and probably no blogging until I get back.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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