65
Oh all right---196 then. Holding steady for a week. I hate it when I get what I deserve--I so much rather have what I want instead. I'm going to have to read some success stories again. The trouble is that I love food much more than I think I'll love the lifestyle that will go with being thin. But even as I type that I realize that it isn't quite true. I haven't lost my faith yet--and I'm not doing terribly either! Far from it! I've learned a lot and nearly doubled the 7 pound goal the insurance set for me. Today I did pretty well and got a lot of exercise gardening at both my mom's and my own place. Mom is looking much better.
Another thing I did right was to finally get myself some Brie cheese. I'm always lusting after the fancy cheeses and I hardly ever indulge and actually buy any. But that is going to stop. One fancy cheese every week or so isn't going to bankrupt us. I divided the Brie up into 1 ounce (surprisingly big) sections each worth 3 points and I thoroughly enjoyed one today. I think indulging in luxuries such as this will go a long way into helping me to feel happier with overall eating less. It was terrific---made all the more so by the idea that I will indulge in some other cheesy delight when it's gone. I also made some terrific mini-muffins from the ww site---proscuitto and parmesan. YUM! and only 2 points. Tomorrow is fast sunday---so that means I don't have to worry too much about counting points. It will take quite a lot of dinner to get to the 36 points I'll have. Catherine is making a brisket and sourdough biscuits. She's really got the knack of biscuits! Her last effort had a nearly professional sourdough flavor and was nearly as flaky as a KFC. She thinks her buttermilk was too cold and is attempting a remedy tonight.
Time to re-commit. I don't want to flat line again next week.
Losing weight in spite of myself.
I began this blog in February 2011 as a way to help me not quit trying to lose weight, and to learn a few things. It's been an interesting and powerful experience. It certainly confirms what I've long suspected--that although I am a genuinely happy cheery person in the main, I am NOT a happy cheery dieter. I DETEST losing weight. I resent being overweight in the first place and I am a virtuoso in the art of self-sabotage. And YET--I'm doing it! I'm fighting and kicking and EATING all the way down, but the weight is finally going down. The plan I was following in February was a half-baked one largely based on wishful thinking. I gained a little weight and decided to get real. I knew I couldn't just join weightwatchers or count calories or do any one plan and expect to be successful. I decided if I was going to bother to make the effort to lose weight I was going to throw everything I could think of at the problem. And so I do. My real "Day One" for this blog is April 1, 2011. I joined weight watchers, I joined caloriecount.com (awesome website), I read the blog losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com religiously, I keep this blog faithfully, I joined the health programs sponsored by my insurance, I use the principles from overeater's anonymous, I use my church's 12 step program as well, I subscribe--and use--Healthy Cooking Magazine.
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
The result of all this? Painfully slow progress (About 20 lbs in 10 months). But it IS progress and like the little engine that could I keep on trying in my rebellious way. I have no intention of quitting. This is by far the longest sustained weight loss effort I've ever made in my life. Successful I think, because for the first in my life I've done this MY way--which I've discovered, involves a lot of pizza and restaraunt food. I'm convinced this is the only way to lose weight. For me it must be MY way. For you it MUST be YOUR way. Not weight watcher's way, not your doctor's way, but YOUR way. Any plan or idea I use is only a tool.
The latest plan to lose weight my way began on Oct 29, 2013. It really is my own crazy plan. As you'll see if you read that post. I've implemented the best ideas of all sorts of eating plans and thrown out the scale. A couple of months in and I'm definitely healthier. I'm actually enjoying myself. I won't weigh until April 1, 2014, so I'll see then if this works the way I hope it will.
There is no magic weight loss bullet. But there IS a great deal of magic in the discovery of what I can happily live with (very different from what weight watchers tells me I can happily live with) and still have the body and health I want.
Good luck to all of us on this journey. It's quite a trip!
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